There’s so much negativity in my life it’s pretty hard to break out of it. I’m not doing my level best at things i have control over, and that’s really my biggest blow. I should really step up.
As we speak on this matter, just realise some problems probably aren’t mine to solve. Like there’s this one person, who’s such a constant negative influence. It’s as though everything just rumbles down when that presence exist anywhere near me. There isn’t permanent joy and peace whenever he/she’s around. What sucks more is that there’s no way of getting rid of it.
I could only find strength and hope to better myself with the positivity that i so have right now, that hopefully, one day, i could grow out of it. Bringing those that deserves much more with me, with the accumulated ‘wealth’ and have a better life. Because nothing permanently good comes forth from where i am currently standing.
It seems like i’m pointing fingers at others than myself, but to be honest, i’m also one of my own source of problems. I really seriously have to get the fuck out of my zone and do the right thing.
LIKE GEEZ REALIZE YOU’RE YOUR OWN PROBLEM. you can only blame so much, but deep down I’m my own problem.
you know what? I’ll fucking break through this steel. Because when it all seems impossible, it’s always possible. on the surface of things, damn hell it looks difficult, but I’m going forward. Because as the saying goes, nothing good ever comes from looking back and nothing good comes from stagnantly bitching.
One day, just one day i would like to make it big out there. Not just for myself, but those that deserved more than i do.